Thursday, May 15, 2008

Feelings...

I am starting to vaguely recollect what was going through my head when I was only a couple of weeks out from my due date with LP. There are some that I am experiencing all over again and others that I am glad to have put behind me.

For instance, I feel:
  • Anxious. I thought I had put behind me the constant analysis of every small twinge or new sensation to determine if it is a sign of impending labor.
  • Curious. I still am very excited to find out the gender of this baby and what he or she looks like. And man, do I hope this baby at least somewhat resembles the Hoos (and I don't mean in terms of body parts).
  • Ambivalent. Playing the "Ready or not ready" game. This consists of me flip-flopping about if I want the baby to come now or hang on until June 2nd.
  • Confident. It is nice to feel confident in my mothering ability, having done it before as opposed to freaked out over how I am going to deal with constant new challenges.
  • Cumbersome. Today I am wearing black pants that sort of tent up to the apex of my belly. Since that doesn't make much sense, imagine Danny DeVito as the Penguin. My belly sticks out - far. Further than last time I think, and I have the new pretty red stretch marks to prove it.
  • Good. In general, I feel good. Sure, at the end of the day I am a bit creaky, but for the most part, I can't complain.

2 comments:

Manager Mom said...

I felt confident for the second one too, and then he was born and I realized that I didn't have the hang of the whole boy v. girl plumbing. So the first time I tried to change him he peed everywhere, including all over his own face. as I was frantically trying to clean him up he passed his meconium. i finally gave up and rang for the nurse.

i'm sure that won't happen to you though. :-)

Tiffany said...

Since my babies come early at this stage in the game I would wake up every morning upset that I had not gone into labor yet. The second time is easier when it comes to labor and being a mother just in the fact that you know what to expect. Although you completely fogot how labor feels from baby one to baby 2! Good luck with everyone - can't wait to hear when you have the little one. It will be a boy born on LP's birthday!