Did you ever have a really vivid dream where someone you know slights you in some way? You know, those dreams where your spouse is cheating on you, or calls you chubby? Or your co-worker takes credit for your work?
These are the dreams where you wake up with your jaw clenched and even as you realize it is a dream you want to reach over and smack your spouse upside the head. They won't know what they did wrong and will then be pissed at you for jarring them out of their nice slumber.
Last night/this morning I had one of these dreams and the result was really strange and unlike anything I have ever experienced. I got mad at myself in the dream for my reaction to the offending party. Instead of going off and getting mad at them, I took a few deep breaths and reasoned out (all in my head) what I could have done differently to diffuse the situation.
I mean really, how bizarre is that? I thought dreams were retreats from reality for the mind. I have turned into a grown-up EVEN IN MY DREAMS.
I am not sure how I feel about this. Sure I have a husband and a 1.5 year old and a mortgage and a job and I can't stay up until midnight on New Year's Eve but I never really thought I was an adult; I was just really really good at bullshitting that I was an adult. Sometime recently my mind made the switch to make me a full-on mature person. Is there a way to flick the lever back in the other direction?!